These song triggers of confusion.
And how the hell am I supposed to forget about you?
How can I just... move on and get you OUT OF MY HEAD?!
I don't want to feel this way anymore...
Not for someone who doesn't deserve it.
And I am left clueless... I have no idea what's going on.

I thought I might need you.
I thought you were going to help me through this.
And I'm here all alone.

But I guess you get what's coming to you in the end
and I am pretty sure that I am a really horrible person.
For the hearts I play with like toys.
Like they are nothing... and I am supposidly so compassionate.
But what kind of a good soul breaks so many hearts?
Am I really so innocent?
I don't mean to hurt them.
I really don't.
I think that... each one, I try so hard to love them.
But I fail because they never were right for me.
And then I met someone that I wasn't even TRYING to love.
And fell despite it.

He did to me what I have done to others.
And so I have no right to complain for my heartaches
because I brought it on myself.

If I could transform into something better...
I would be someone who loves honestly and wholy without fear.
Who trusts and gives in a close relationship with someone else ...
And love swithout the fear of disappointment.

Oh this mess I am.
It'll be years before I am anything.
But I won't tell a soul... that I'm losing my faith.
Because they all depend on me to be this strong always faithful girl.
But I'm very very confused right now.

God, please.... help me.
Send me an angel.